A lost thought on Growth .

Yes , I had lost this thought .. but like all thoughts this one too came floating back to me and I had to put it down here ... What is growth ?? Why are we all running after growth .. definitely for some it means a better salary and pay package ... what about the rest who dont really care abt the money ?

Well .. heres my thought .... all human beings think of :whats the purpose of my life " ? "why am I here .."? .. and ofcourse they never got the answer to these questions so easily ... so the human kind created their own answers ... you need to be remembered by you achievements ... u need to be better than others at things ... you see, the society forces you to become someone important .. who is remembered... the society wants you to perform .. the peer pressure and competition ....what if I dont care ... I am happy with what I am ... I have a comfortable life ... dont need anything more .. the ego massage ... the pride ... nothing... just want peace of mind ... but th society doesnt allow that ... you are constantly being compared and rated ... hence you have a purpose in life ... to achieve a certain list of things , which will entitle you to the title "successful " ....

Humans feel insecured ... wen they do not know the answer to some question ... so we created our answer to the qustions ... the purpose of our life is to be successful ... we created the hirarchy .. the career path and the promotion s ... do we really need any of this ?

think for your self ... dont let the social system make you choices and take your decisions...

Chalk-Pencil-Pen

Our lives are more or less framed in this pattern ..."Chalk- Pencil and Pen" ... think about it ..
We start our education with "hathe khori " writing with chalk on a slate ... which can be erased very easily. The reason behind , a child starting to write with a chalk is , one , as a child you are expected to make mistakes , you are expected to learn from those mistakes and improve on your writing skills .. we get to save the slate too .. hence there's hardly anything that one looses out on by writing as slate .. there's no consequence of going wrong here ... as a child you don't really have to take responsibility or face consequences of your actions .....

Then we graduate to Pencil .... the writing is kind of permanent , until you choose to erase it ... you can use an erases and may be use the same paper / sheet twice or thrice. The more you write the pencil gets blunt and you have to use a sharpener and very gradually we use up the pencil ... the paper too over few times of erasing tears away .. here .. we are allowed to go wrong a few times post which we have to face consequences ... we are expected to learn from the chalk phase and become better at dealing with life and making better decisions ... the burden of responsibility is not much but it definitely is telling enough abt the next phase in life .....

Thats the Pen phase ... and it ends with the pen phase .... pens /inks more expensive ... the sheet you write on can not be reused ... you have to think twice & thrice before you write with a pen ... the permanency of life ... the life changing decisions you make .. the people you hurt... the list just goes on .... you are expected to take all the right decisions ... you are expected to deal with life correctly... you are expected to Carry the baggage of responsibilities...

wondering abt , graduating to computers .. think about it .. we still take wrong print outs and waste paper and ink .. we do have the option of cntrl Z ... but we still have to make a choice and hit Cntrl S at some point ... cntrl S is the point where you make the choice and you are expected to make choice which is right by all ... you are expected to deal better with life...

Chalk- pencil -pen ... isn't it kind of eerie ... !!

Of arms & existence.. !!

Was in B'lore last week watching this movie on STAR movies .. The brave one ... Didnt get the full story as was watching halfway .. but did catch this dialouge ( or something that souded like this ) .. " I cant feel my body without his arms around me , i dont think i exist anymore "
Is it good to be dependent on some one to actually feel that you exist ..... with my current mood i would say no ........ but some other time i would say, that feeling of being in love and living your life tangled with someone else's .. that feeling is priceles.....

thought -less.

Lately have nt had any thoughts that I want to capture ... damn .. I have been so up to my neck with work ... the no of posts in April shows that i guess .. just realised that my job is a part of my life and not my whole life .. and i have to remember that at all times ... its good for my boss if I take my job personally may be ..but its not working for me ,and I have had it ... too much of something is not good ..

All my principles have gone down the drain!!

"All my principles have gone down the drain ".......Thats what a friend said ...

when we were 13 we had certain priciples and values , when we were 18 and we had a new set of principles ..21 after college ,some more compromises and  some new principles... now at 26 ... i think I have the final set ;) , but who knows .. it might change some more in the life ahead ..  but by now we have realised that life is full of compromises .. and there are things we say " we are never going to compromise on " .... but few years down , we find ourselves giving in and compromising ... 

We believed in fairy tales and we believed in Santa clause ... some of us still do ;) ... but most of us dont believe in it any more .. life has taught us not to ... similarly ... life has also taught us what principles to stick to and what to compromise on ..... it varies from person to person , and the situation faced by one ...

we change..........remember the life changing experiences ... 

hmmm , so instead of feeling guilty for compromising on principles that we had 10 yrs back , we shud look ahead and take life as it comes . 10 yrs back we couldnt really have imagined or understood where we are standing today .... so i dont see why our principlesl should'nt change along with our changing lives........

Like someone once said " Never say Never " !!

Love at first sight...

Who ever believed in that ??? May b I did till very early years of my life .. courtesy :Bollywood movies ;)...

recently at a shopping spree bought stuff that I fell in love with at the first sight ...a friend says "if you notice those are the ones that get you most of the compliments"... I say , " cos they are perfect for us "..
having said that I realise- how come it doesnt happen that way with the men we like !?!?!

I wonder .....

It seems like a foot wear from Inc.5 and a kurti from W cant say " no I wont go home with you " but unfortunately the ppl we meet can say so .....

hmmmmmm ... but even if they did say I will come with you we cud never be that sure ...

I feel , its easier to make up ur mind abt a dress than abt a man ... cos its easier to discard a dress..!!!

Revolutionary Road...

For those of you who did not follow OSCARS , this film was nominated in the best film category and some more categories...
I watched the movie last night and was shocked to find that how much i could relate to it .....

RR is not only the name of the street were the characters live but also the road they try to take to fill up the "hopeless emptiness" of life ....

Yes the HOPELESS EMPTINESS........

Thats wat life becomes , when we get disillusioned by the conformism of the society ... we grow up being told to want a good job and marriage and family .. and in the process of doing so we loose out on living life ... thats when life becomes empty ...and it takes a mental patient in this film to realise that this emptiness is hopeless... ppl live hoping to arrive in life and start living it ,,, while life passes you by and you reach your old age and realise that you still havent arrived and you are about to die..

We get into the comfort zone of our life , as we grow up and grow in our careers our lifestyle changes and it becomes more and more expensive. Suddenly there is a point when you realise that this is not what you want from life ... u dont wanna spend your life working 10 hrs a day and not really enjoying what you do...
but by then its too late ... you are trapped ..you are caged ... you want out but you dont have the guts for it ... you are too secured in the emptiness of your life to want to venture out .... but the spirit within you dies .... life just becomes a chore .....

The Revolutionary Road is about having the guts to get out of this confrming life and doing what you want to do ... but to do it you have to take the risk of failing and starting from the scratch ...which most of us are scared to do ...

Why i could relate to this !!! well , at the moment i do feel caged sometimes but the door of the cage is still not locked ... I try not to feel too secured with the job I have and the money that I earn .... dont get into credit , keep a inexpensive lifestyle , doesnt matter how many promotions I get ..... and always imagine the worst case scenario and say to myself ... thats not too bad :O)

However this movie potrays the fear that I have ... of getting stuck in a life that I dont want .... after all , you always know your own self .. and as far as I know myself .... I have the wanderlust;) ....