Wish I was just an amusement park

Wish I was just an amusement park
The giant wheel ,taking u high and low
The blood rushing to your head,
The winds screaming in your ears,
 Erratic heart beats fast and slow.

Wish I was just an amusement park ,
The Merry-go-round , blurring out your vision
For a moments hallucination
Merging realities, prolonged ecstasies.

Wish I was just an amusement park,
The candy-floss, pink sugary surrender
The child within coming alive.
The luxuries of being naive
Taking you away to memories of forgotten wonder.

Wish I was just an amusement park.

Who are you fooling

Questions , they bother you.
Questions , they are no longer new.
Questions that your mind ask,
Questions, that you don't want .
The truth is ,
The answer is known,
It's has always been there, glaring at your face,
Taunting, haunting , hurting ,twisting around , round and round,
White lace.
Soft, trusting, delicate, dreamy, harmlessly so,
Leaving marks , ugly red gashes , twisted in patterns
Scars , they will never go.
Ignore them for a while ,
It might buy you some time.
Questions,
They will return, Creeping in , when you are least expecting,
And the truth is, you knew the answer all along,
It will not change, how many ever times you ask the same questions.
Ignore them for a while ,
It might buy you some time.

Waiting in the rain

Sitting at the edge of the world ,
Waiting , waiting since ages old.
Waiting for you to find me, join me
To show yourself.
Looking down, on the glistening town...
Now I fear not, that you shall never come,
Now I fear of-  not finding you ...
Not seeing you ,
Through the sheets of rain,
Rain. Rain of pain.

Damn the human mind !!

Ever since I have started working , i dont remember taking a holiday and staying at home sleeping and eating ... its been almost 9 yrs ... today , i find myself forced to take rest for a week at least, with a sprained ankle ... and trust me i was not happy to hear that i will be stuck in bed for a week or more...
I don't really feel sick just that i cant move ...

Not that i never took holidays or leave from work, but for me holidays are always about travelling and going places, which obviously has its own set of planning to be done and decisions to be made.

I was whining about this situation when a friend told me that some force ( divine / universal/ unknown) has decided that i need this rest and making me take it!!! could be true.. and it got me thinking..

Have I forgotten to take it easy ?? Yeah..life has not been a bed of roses , but a little bit of fight do get me what I want ... but not having to do anything / make any decisions/ not being engaged constantly to find a solution to a problem .. this seems new to me :) ... i feel light and i am not able to accept this feeling ..

now the worry is ... is it ok to feel so light ?? :) damn the human mind !!

Is it possible ?

Is it possible to love more than one ? Is it possible to have more than one BFF ? Is it possible to choose between multiple people we care about ? ( reminds me of a dialouge , " pyaar bahaut baar hota , lekin mohabbat sirf ek baar hota hai "  who believes that bull shit ? )
Here's some context- I was helping a friend with free advice on girlfriend and friend dilemma , and like it happens sometimes was hit by this crystal clarity of a thought  .
There are few in our lives who are non negotiable .

So you can have family , friends , lovers, mentors , teachers , work and all other relationships that's defined in the dictionary and add the ones which are not defined too. Out of all these people there the ones you will never negotiate on. So Wats does negotiate on means ?
Well I guess it means , u will prioritize
them - no questions asked . You will cross seven seas to be with them . U will drop everything and rush to their help if they are in trouble. Doesn't matter if u haven't spoken or met them in years . These are the kind of relations where there is no room for ego .
That's the easy bit .
Now how do u choose between two non negotiable ppl ? Hmmmm that's difficult . Fact is u can't choose . Depending on the situation u take a call . U balance . And you go on ..... No one said its easy !
I like to believe these non negotiable ppl have bit of our souls.... : )
So smart thing to do is never ask someone to negotiate on their non negotiable ones .....

Once again

Yes I have thoughts to share and quiet a few of them. Coming soon .

pattampoochi paradox

It feels great to see my china orange tree grow from a little sappling to a 2 footer .. and I was waiting to see a little touch of orange on it soon.........and to my surprise I found a touch of yellow on it ......yellow eggs from a butterfly !!!....A beautiful Pattam poochi hovering over my orang tree... little did I know that P.poochi is laying eggs on the young sprouting orange leaves .. :(

The eggs will lead to caterpillars and the small P.poochis will be feeding on the my orange leaves soon ... to save my tree i ll have to destroy the eggs :( feel sad about that too ..

Well i guess leaves were made to be eaten .. but my gardener says the caterpillars would destroy the tree...