hmmmmmm

Sometimes .. it seems , nothing is working in life .... i call it "that phase" .... what do u do to come out of it .... well frankly speaking there is'nt much that u can do ... read books watch movies ... work and work some more .....
these are times when getting a promotion doesnt help ... a high pay package doesnt help .... it just means u want somthing new in life ....

I go thru this every year ... ya thats right ... then i shud be good at getting over it ... but no ... everytime its different ..... and it makes me cranky and gloomy and irritated ... i read a book it didnt help ... watched movies , that too didnt help ... and work is making me mad .... dreaming about work is a sign that you are absolutely stressed out ....

hmmmm ... need to go somewhere ... on a trip...

Mind's need to rationalise !!

Someone once told me " Never underestimate the power of mind to complicate things" .

When you start thinking about it, you realize how true it is ... we have found a way to explain everything .. which we call the science .. The science behind every change of state ..

How can 2 people think about each other at the same time ... ( In know: we call it love, but it happens otherwise too) , How can we love and hate someone at the same time ... how can you vibe with someone so well , but still at times want to stay away from that person .... why do people in love need to give space to each other , i thought love is togetherness...
" I follow my head " ..." I follow my heart " ... "my head and my heart is always at conflict" .... isnt that how we try to explain things like these...

hmmm ... well , you see , we are always trying to explain or rationalise....

Mind - as an entity , is would say , is very pretty egoistic ... our mind will never give up till we have explained or found a reason behind things ..... It doesnt understand that there are thing in this universe which need not be explained or understood... its just the way it is ....

And when our mind , tries to understand , we come to conclusions , and to us that becomes the only justifiable reason and thats when we start seeing simple things in a complicated way .... its like a prism... when you see through it the white light breaks into a number of colorful rays .... similarly when we look at simple things of life through the glass of reason , and come to a complex conclusion it adds color to our life ...

Picture 2 men taking a walk .... that does sound boring , now ..picture 2 men taking a walk and let your imagination fly ... let your mind ask why are these 2 men walking together .... getting few answers ? coming to a conclusion ? ... now , thats a lil bit more interesting !!!!

what I am trying to say here , is that , some things are just meant to be ,... and we have to experience it ... our purpose is to just experience these things without trying to rationalise ... and mostly we are supposed to experience pain and still try to find happiness... every time you feel pain try to be happy ...

The walk under the starlit sky..

My sister and me made this trip to Mathaburu, Purulia... after landing there we realised that it is camp for a rock climbing course .....
We were not prepared to spend our holiday on a tight schedule .. but still we gave it a try .. waking up at 5 in the morning and going running and PT in the chilly breeze of January was a refreshing change from the AC at work and so was the landscape from the computer screen ... we used to come back to our camp after that have breakfast and go trekking and rock climbing ... learnt a lot about climbing which I am sure would help me at some point in the future ... learnt these different ways of tying knots ( dont confuse with marraige;)).... and ofcourse learnt to survive as well as have fun with people from various backgrounds , with whom you dont find any mental match ... the experience was no less than a roadies show .... The high point of this trip for me , was when we took a walk under the starry sky ..... Well you can call it a walk or you can call it trekking in the dark , following this narrow man made path lined with vegetation and trees .... ofcourse we had our "pencil" torches lighting our path , making these wierd shadows as we walked ..... we even had a 3 legged, hybrid of a hill dog and a street dog for company, who was trying his best to make us trip...
so there we were, a line of campers , taking a walk , in search of a "coil of climbing rope" which we had managed to leave behind during the day ....
There was a mixed reaction among the group.... some were scared of ghots and some of wild animals.... there was this distinct smell of some animal , which added fuel to everyones' imagination. Personally i think it was a fox.

Anyways ,so then we reached one of the rocky clearing were we had practiced rock climbing, in order to search for the rope. And suddenly one of us looked up and there it was, the balck velvety carpet , studed with millions and millions of brilliant diamonds ..... I could hear my sister gasp next to me and then the shouts of " switch of the torches " ..... (the ghosts and the wild animals had vanished for the moment i guess.;)].
I have come across such a sky in the sana beach, mandarmoni...however, it was the first for my sister...

we stood there drinking in the beauty of this pollution free , clear , brilliant sky... and there it was ....." a falling star" !!! ... i quickly mad a wish .. my sister didnt know that you were supposed to make a wish . But then she said " star gazing like this, with you by my side is all I want" .... ( well, yeah , we were on a holiday together after may be 7-8 years).As I said we were on a schedule , so we had to keep moving , but now it was a slower walk , as we were trying to walk with our heads up trying to identify the clusters of stars ... i only know the hunter and the bright saturn .... W even saw 2 white acrches on the sky ... which ppl said were milky ways ... i dunno what it was but it added to the mystery. We kept walking , through the hilly road and found the rope at the next rock .

On our way back there was another brilliant surprise waiting for us. The moon , rising behind the Matha hill ... it was beautiful ..... ( read: beeauuuuuuuuutiful).

The memory makes me speechless..........